So I had told my friends on Facebook that I was going to keep a log on how I felt and what was going on through my life while I was off of Facebook for Lent. Yes I gave up Facebook for Lent and it was hard the first couple of days but I don't even miss it too much anymore. So for my friends that may see this here it goes :D!
February 21, 2012
5:15 p.m. About to go walking with cooky and Jess. Last day of Facebook...
6:44 p.m. Walked two miles without Xena being too crazy. I am tired!!!!
11:16 p.m. Guelite fell down hard just a lil bit ago, fell through my door breaking its hinges. Scared me and the cats to death. It was all loud but somehow the guys didn't hear it when they like just across the hallway. Hmmm idk but I wish I could sleep through noise like that! Me and mom had to pick her up by ourselves. Gotta say I've gotten stronger!
February 22, 2012
12:20 a.m. So Lent just started and so have the temptations. Keep thinking I can just peek once at my Facebook but I know I musn't b/c that would ruin everything. On another note... Why Pablo think he can be part of my altar? Well I guess who wouldn't want to sleep among the saints.
8:02 a.m. Last night I kept dreaming I was on Facebook but by accident. Like other people would show me theirs and then I would look on my page. Pretty funny stuff. Cooky says its because I was obsessed with it. Maybe that's true.
1:39 p.m. So I really wanted to get on Facebook to talk about how crazy some people that call us can be, but I didn't. You know I think about Facebook a lot, I wonder if people miss me. I know its only been one day but still. Glad Jess is off the 40 days with me at least I know I ain't doing it alone. Now I'm sitting at the doctors office. Am I the only one that wonders why they take so long to see you if u just heard them talking in the hallway?
8:48 p.m. Didn't have any help at ccd today and I had to take seventh grade in my class too!! Was very hard and I wanted to walk out a couple of times. It was so loud and my class was so intimidated by them. Bad idea, hope next week is better.
9:35pm - how are we suppose to go to our room and pray with so much madness going on in the other rooms?
11:26pm - first day wasn't that hard. I think I would try to look at my Facebook more as a force of habit than b/c I wanted to know what was going on.
February 24, 2012
1:26 p.m. - So idk what is up with me. Ever since I almost rested in the spirit at mass on ash Wednesday I see things differently. Yesterday I didn't get mad at Pablo for breaking my Mary that I have had since I was in elementary!! I got sad but I didn't get mad or cuss like I might have before. Today I went to pay off another bill... A big one! And the lady told me I was gaining weight. Ok first I'm losing, second how rude to tell a customer that and third what if I had self esteem issues. I could have gone killed myself or became bulimic or something. Anyway before I would have gotten so hurt and mad but today it didn't even bother me. I didn't even get mad! I was like the duck that I always tell people to be. Then upon further contemplation of the matter at hand. Maybe that was the red man trying to hold the brown girl down b/c I'm one step closer to paying off all my bills. Anyway I still miss Facebook at times but I do see now how much time I was spending on it and how much it was clouding my daily life. I can fell the presence of God so strong it's awesome!!!!
5:47 pm - Well it is well said that catholicism is the last accepted prejudice and for good reason. People are allowed to mock our faith and we just have to take it. U know being a Christian is a lot more than just believing in Jesus, after all the devil believes in Jesus. We have to commit ourselves to Him and to living how He taught. Jesus taught us not to judge so how come so many people (Christians) judge us for being Catholics? Why do they judge or mock our seasons, especially lent? U know Jesus said judge not so u shouldn't judge ur fellow Christian and yes Catholics are Christians, we are the original Christian church so before people mock us they should question themselves why are they mocking us when their church branched off of ours? We are 2.5 billion members and growing, I would think that shows how we are doing something right. So u think giving up meat on Friday's is stupid. Well I believe sacrifice is needed in our lives to keep us in check and keep us from being greedy and keep us humble. After all what did God give up for Lent? Himself. So yeah we can give up meat on Friday's, we should do a lot more. Never judge a faith u don't understand. Instead ask questions so u will understand. And if u must judge or mock a faith, choose satanism, I mean why would anyone want to worship a god that hates them? And after u get all that judging and mocking out of ur system, reach out to them and bring them to the God that loves them. Would u mock ur mother or judge her? Then don't mock the mother church b/c she is ur faith's mother no matter how far it has strayed from her.
7:23 pm - Mom called me to the room to ask a question about someone on Facebook while she was on Facebook! How rude! But I waked out and told her she knew I wasn't suppose to be on that! Shoot huh! That's strike two for the red man...
8:33 pm - too much tude in the living room and I'm in too much pain, came to my room to chill.
February 25, 2012
3:10 p.m. - So started off this morning watching King Kong with mom and trying not to laugh when she cried. Then I took B12 and can't stop the beat! Haha!! Then I burned my stomach with hot water from boiled papas - not good, but we getting ready to celebrate Guelite's birthday.
9 pm - We are winding down from Guelite's birthday. We had quite a bit of people show up and we had a lot of food left over. Guelite liked the blanket I got her a lot. The B12 was awesome, barely coming off of it now.
February 26, 2012
8:57 p.m. - So I have to ask myself if helping people on Facebook is the same thing as being on Facebook. I have so many people asking me questions about it and I want to help them but I think that would be cheating. Giving up Facebook has been good for me, I have had more time to do things like read the bible than before. My birthday is in a week, hope all is good ;). All I want are shoes, Hehe
9:58 pm - The best boxer of all time... Hands down is... Rocky Balboa!
10:30 pm - He who lives under the protection of the Most High dwells under the shade of the Almighty. He will say to the Lord: “You are my shelter and my strength, my God, in whom I trust.”
February 27, 2012
2:41 p.m. The Medjugorje Message, February 25, 2012 “Dear children! At this time, in a special way I call you: 'pray with the heart'. Little children, you speak much and pray little. Read and meditate on Sacred Scripture, and may the words written in it be life for you. I encourage and love you, so that in God you may find your peace and the joy of living. Thank you for having responded to my call.”
February 28, 2012
11:44 a.m. - Well yesterday I was sick all day long. Ate too much beef over the weekend when I know I'm not suppose to. I felt terrible yesterday but Daddy made me some of that tea and I feel better today. This morning I found out one of our cell phones was going to be charged $400 for data fees I almost died. But it all worked out in the end and he will only have to pay $40. Much much better. Now I'm on the way to Houston again and see that stupid liver doctor that blames all illness on weight.
3:08 pm - I was praying the whole time that mom gets good news at the doctor and she did. She has to loose 50 lbs and there is a very good chance her liver would fix itself. So now we gotta get her on a diet and we have high hopes. I know I was praying for it but its just awesome to receive the blessing as well.
6:50 pm - I'm so sleepy right now. I can't stay awake wish I could take a nap. Need a coke!!!
February 29, 2012
1:08 pm. - Lord God, help me to recognize my sinful ways. Help me to free myself from the bonds of Satan It is through your mercy and goodness that I am set free.
2:22 pm - I woke up with a bad migraine this morning so I took imitrex but it didn't work but this time my face feels funny and I can't feel parts of it. My heart is racing and I'm shaky. I also can't carry long conversations. Cooky wants me to go to the ER but I know they won't help me, but if it gets worse I will. It always happens on a Wednesday when I got ccd!
5:50 pm - so it turns out everything I was feeling was side affects to the imitrex. First it don't work second it makes me feel crazy. Don't know if I want to keep trying that. Now I gotta go to ccd and once again I gonna have both sixth and seventh grade. God help me! Good thing Susie gonna go to calm everyone down.
March 1, 2012
7:03 p.m. - Karla: what are Catholics? Me: we are Catholics. Karla: I thought we were Mexicans. Haha!!!!
8:58 pm - had fun with the girls and Susie ay Pizza Hut it was such a relief from everything. Seeing the girls act silly and teasing alexis about the waiter was priceless. Then singing the Barney I love you song to our pizza or chicken wing was the beat. I bet the other people around us thought we were crazy. It was a lot different from yesterday when my headache made me forget the Hail Mary and Glory Be at church. I've been praying those prayers since 2nd grade every night and that doesn't count the many times I pray the rosary. Can you imagine how stupid I felt to have completly forgotten those prayers? I still can't talk clearly and my head still hurts but like I heard an angel named Hermana Glenda say: de que tengo miedo? Sí nada es imposible para ti? What am I afraid of if with God nothing is impossible? I can come out of this and I know God is not done with me yet so He will help me through this.
March 2, 2012
5:42 p.m. - The Medjugorje Web
http://www.medjugorje.org Our Lady's message to Mirjana Soldo of March 2nd, 2012 "Dear children; Through the immeasurable love of God I am coming among you and I am persistently calling you into the arms of my Son. With a motherly heart I am imploring you, my children, but I am also repeatedly warning you, that concern for those who have not come to know my Son be in the first place for you. Do not permit that by looking at you and your life, they are not overcome by a desire to come to know Him. Pray to the Holy Spirit for my Son to be impressed within you. Pray that you can be apostles of the divine light in this time of darkness and hopelessness. This is a time of your trial. With a rosary in hand and love in the heart set out with me. I am leading you towards Easter in my Son. Pray for those whom my Son has chosen that they can always live through Him and in Him – the High Priest. Thank you." I've been sick all day today too. Not only did I get a migraine a few minutes ago but I had horrible side affects to a new pill I took last night. I've been horrible all day, its hard to make sure at all times a restroom is close by.
March 4, 2012
12:02 a.m. - So today is my birthday. Yesterday I went to Blue Ocean for my biryhday and Cooky and Susie invited my friends without me knowing. It was so awesome!!! I had a great time and that was because I was so tired because I was moving all my stuff into another room. But seeing everyone gave me more energy. I liked taking pictures with everyone and acting like we were lost in the desert. I got a bunch of neat things and a lot of things I wanted. Didn't need to get chonies from Xena at my party though!! Haha! But I still think that today will be one of my most memorable birthdays. Each year cooky and Susie try to surprise me, each year I figure it out. This year I kinda was getting the hint but I was not sure. And when we got there and I didn't see any cars that I recognized except Susie's I thought maybe they didn't invite other people after all. Then inside I saw the party room all dark and the lady telling me that they were expecting a lot of people so if we could go into the room, I said sure but then I really started to think no one came or was invited and then I saw everyone. It was awesome ;)
March 5, 2012
5:59 p.m. - Wow my St. Cayetano is done, now I just got to make copies of his prayer and take him to the church. He is beautiful. So I bring him home and hang him up until its time to take him to the church and mom tells me to go to HEB, well I hate going to HEB so I begin to argue with her about it and St. Cayetano flies off the wall. It was crazy!! Guess he said no arguing while he is around. And I'm gonna have to say sure man no problem.
March 6, 2012
5:19 p.m. - Wow today was such a busy and angry day. I spent so much of the day mad at everything, I was so mad at my dish place because they can't ever get my stuff right. I was mad because I may not be the best volleyball player in the world and I know that I have not been practicing but I get mad when some make comments about my playing style. I have such a busy day today and it is not over yet. I feel like I am too busy all the time but I don't know how to slow down!!